ひけめ
sense of inferiority; one's weak point
Common word Also written ひけ目
Noun
私わたしなんか、親戚しんせきに会あうと引ひけ目めを感かんじてしまうわ。
I feel not quite up to snuff when I meet my relatives.
何なにか拭ぬぐいがたいひけ目めを持もった少年しょうねんが、自分じぶんはひそかに選えらばれた者ものだ、と考かんがえるのは、当然とうぜんではあるまいか。
Isn't it natural for a young man with a hard to shake reservedness about himself to think that he is secretly the chosen one?