あかはじ
great shame (endured in the public eye); deep embarrassment; profound humiliation; utter disgrace
Noun
最近さいきんのぼくは、「生いき恥はじ」「赤恥あかはじ」をかくことを恐おそれなくなりました。
Recently I've stopped being afraid of "living in shame" and being exposed to "public ridicule".